I have lived with daily, irrational fears for decades. At certain points, they were so intense that they crippling. I’m sharing this  because I don’t want anyone who struggles like this to feel alone.

I also want you to know: many of my fears were not real. They were not happening now. They were echoes from the past.

What was I afraid of?

I was afraid to open my mail.

I was afraid to pay my bills even when I have the money to pay them.

I was afraid to do my dirty dishes or pick up the pile of clothes on the floor.

I was afraid to respond to a text or email.

 I was afraid to go to bed at night.

And I was deeply afraid that people were mad at me or would suddenly ghost me.